Memory Lane

Do they appreciate

the way you are

I stopped caring

what people say

I appreciated myself

enough

to last a month

Then I came back

stood in front of the mirror

and admitted

self-appreciation leaks

All I wanted

was validation from others

But they arrive carrying

different mouths

different weather

You dress this way

you look smart

No, you look bland

No, you don’t look like

you belong to this land

So appreciation becomes optional

and validation

a requirement

Yet nothing

nothing we need as much

as closing our eyes

What else do we need

to remember ourselves

Memory lane

unchanged

The way she looked at me

like she was already gone

That look

Those eyes

Distant before distance

Memories don’t leave

they relocate

Will we cross paths someday

Nothing to do

Nothing to say

Destiny doesn’t need applause

Only witness

We must appreciate

the way we are

In one way

and the other

Two sides of the same lane

Me

You

Us

All of us

walking

without noticing

we never left

memory lane

Feathers Heavier Than Home

I asked a bird

if I could borrow its wings

just for a while

so I could fly back home.

It didn’t answer.

It dropped a few feathers.

I stood there,

holding them,

thinking

what does a man do

with feathers

lighter than his heart,

thinner than his blood,

lighter than his sweat,

and all the work

he buried inside time.

My body is heavy.

I know that.

So I leave my fate with God.

Because even if my bones refuse,

I still believe

my soul

remembers how to fly.

I’ve crossed oceans like a bird.

Let’s not romanticize it.

I used a plane.

No wings.

No sky songs.

Just tickets, queues,

and a goodbye

that stayed longer than expected.

When I landed on this land,

I got busy in my lane.

Survival doesn’t ask poetry,

it asks rent.

But tell me,

what name do you give

to pain

when everyone around you

calls it opportunity?

I know I’m not the only one

living in a cage.

Some cages look like jobs,

some look like smiles,

some look like “I’m fine.”

Not every emotion

is meant to be staged.

Yes,

I earned something.

Money.

Distance.

A tougher skin.

But how long

can you lock yourself in a night,

hold a beer like a peace treaty,

and convince your heart

whispering to it,

slowly,

patiently,

lying gently,

“Happy days.”

How My Political Views Changed Over Time

How have your political views changed over time?

I believed.

They said.

I thought it was a blueprint.

Turns out

it was a script.

They used mics and media

to turn lies into truth

and truth into something flexible,

foldable,

sellable.

They fulfilled their vested interests,

manufactured faith,

made the sightless follow,

marched them to the cliff.

Nobody pushed.

That’s the part that hurts.

They jumped.

Mid-air,

they realised

we were never citizens,

just numbers

lined up inside voting polls.

We thought they were good.

Sold our souls for sweet food,

temporary taste,

long-term damage.

Insipid truth

served with big words.

Modality.

Technicality.

Economic boom.

Share market groom.

Noise dressed as progress.

When I grew up,

I was the only one

left in the room.

Everyone else carried flags.

My friends said,

“Don’t worry,

we’ve got your back.”

But backs turn quietly.

Syndicates.

Manipulations.

No, I am not carrying their bags.

I already carry enough baggage

just surviving.

They shouted:

Eradicate poverty.

Employment opportunity.

GDP growth.

Smiling faces.

Then recruited people

who didn’t even know

how to tie their laces,

appointed their dogs,

trained them to bark

straight into our faces.

Tycoons joined in,

made the party look grand.

From a distance,

it looked like vision.

Up close,

intentions were bland.

And a few good lads

the honest ones

dissolved somewhere

between compromise

and silence.

My political views over time

couldn’t even resolve

my own confusion.

So they said,

“Let the country suffer.

We’ll call it a buffer zone.”

Life got tougher.

Good people became Lucifer.

And Lucifer smiled and said,

“This is heaven.

This is your world.

Live or die.

Laugh or cry.

Your views don’t matter.

Every day

we will plant a lie,

neatly pressed,

wearing a tie.

Lean towards us,

we’ll make you high.

Refuse,

don’t question our actions.

Our job

is to divide,

to fracture,

to make fractions.

So go away

if politics is not your attraction.

And that’s how my views changed.

Not because I stopped caring,

but because I learned

who was never listening.

Forgive Me for Knocking Too Early

Forgive me

for putting a sword

in your nose

because you were not

sneezing the truth

…and I had to poke you.

Forgive me

for mixing humour

into your drink

you were not used to it

but I had to

joke you.

Forgive me

for my impatience.

I didn’t know

you needed time

to process

me.

Relationships don’t work

like a bullet train.

Some do.

But they are rare.

I thought my feelings for you

would go extinct.

That was superficial.

Thinking

I am special.

Now I know

not for you.

Maybe

for someone else.

Forgive me for thinking

you would peek

out of your window

when I rang you

to come outside

just so

I could see you.

If only I had waited

for you

to come naturally

it wouldn’t have hurt.

Oh…

my impatience

for your sight.

Forgive me for thinking

my memories in your mind

would stay immortal

that you could never

move away

from them.

I only needed

a little space

in your heart.

I didn’t know

your mind was encrypted

against my presence.

Forgive me for thinking

you would correct my grammar

every time

I misspelled

my words.

To err

is human.

Your lenses were beautiful.

I wouldn’t have minded

if you had only given me

space

to correct myself.

Forgive me

for forcing myself

into your heart.

I didn’t want to.

But your painting

was beautiful.

And I thought

I could adjust myself

as a dot

on your canvas.

Forgive me.

The Cave Where Richness Begins

What mistake was that…

which I committed in life?

I thought

I was bigger

than the image

society carved for me.

They used labels instead of chisels,

opinions instead of measurements,

and somehow expected me

to fit inside their pocket-sized truth.

I tried.

I shrank.

I smiled.

That…

was the mistake.

Life is simple.

Painfully simple.

Until you start scratching a pimple

that only needed

time.

Not pressure.

Not nails.

Not obsession.

Just patience.

But we are impatient creatures.

We poke our wounds

and call it healing.

Come closer.

Share your dreams with me.

Not the polished ones

you rehearse at interviews.

The raw ones.

The embarrassing ones.

The dreams you whisper

only when the lights are off

and even hope is half-asleep.

I cannot promise to make them real.

But I promise this

I will not laugh.

I will walk with you

until reality starts negotiating.

They say love is blind.

No.

Love sees too much.

It sees potential where fear sees risk.

It sees tomorrow while today is still screaming.

Love simply doesn’t have

the correct lens

to examine people

the way suspicion does.

That is not blindness.

That is courage

without armor.

Someone once asked me,

“How do I become rich?”

I said,

“You already are.”

They laughed.

Of course they did.

So I said,

“If you don’t believe me,

walk into the cave of your heart.”

Not run.

Walk.

Walk far enough

that noise gets tired.

Far enough

that expectations turn back.

Far enough

that even your name dissolves.

And there

you will find it.

A treasure

that does not glitter,

does not depreciate,

does not ask permission

from circumstance.

Once you touch it,

poverty becomes a situation,

not an identity.

Loss becomes weather,

not destiny.

And no matter

how deprived life tries to make you,

you will remain

untouchably rich.

So no…

my mistake was not dreaming too big.

My mistake

was forgetting

that I was already enough

before the world

gave me a mirror.

Dynamic, Not Dynamite

She didn’t knock.

She walked in

and my heart forgot its own architecture.

No cracks.

No warning lines.

Just… collapse.

Not broken like glass,

broken like matter

splitting into things science hasn’t named yet.

Some pieces too small to grieve,

some vanished,

as if love learned a new way to escape

through air.

I keep asking myself

was it dynamite

or a time bomb?

But no.

It wasn’t a time bomb.

There was no ticking.

No countdown.

No final second where I could have chosen better.

It didn’t announce itself.

It arrived

already finished.

Dynamite was never on my mind.

I was obsessed with dynamic, not destruction.

With our small, beautiful arguments.

The kind that felt like proof we cared.

She could fight over starlight,

debate the sky itself,

while I stayed quiet,

watching the moon do what it does best

shine

without explanation.

Crying was never part of my plan.

But plans don’t survive impact.

Still,

I hope she comes back.

Hope is stubborn like that.

And no,

I didn’t bathe in milk.

I’m not pretending purity.

Maybe this wreckage

has my fingerprints on it.

I danced with my emotions

like I was leading a cult,

convinced passion alone

could hold things together.

I thought I was smart.

Thought love would tighten itself.

But I forgot the basics.

Forgot the quiet work.

Forgot to check the frame.

Forgot

to tighten

my nuts

and bolts.

My People Are My Direction

I don’t know

where life will lead me

I don’t pretend to.

No blueprint folded in my pocket

No shortcut scribbled by someone richer than my doubt

I don’t know.

But I know this.

When the room gets heavy

When the days forget their purpose

My people will need me

And I will show up

Even if I arrive tired

Even if I arrive unsure

Even if all I bring

is my presence

I don’t know

how love is supposed to save me

I’ve seen love fail

I’ve seen it leave

I’ve seen it arrive late

with apologies that limp

Still

I know for sure

my people will love me

Not because I am perfect

But because I stay

Because I listen

Because I choose us

over the easy exit

I don’t know

how things are going to change

Some nights

the future feels like a locked door

with no handle

just my reflection staring back

But I believe

time keeps receipts

It will tell the truth

about how much I tried

how much I fell

how many times I stood up

without an audience

I don’t know

how success will recognize me

or how failure will say my name

But I’m learning

both are temporary visitors

Neither gets to move in

I don’t know

how kindness is supposed to help

in a world that rewards noise

sharp elbows

and cold ambition

But listen

If you love

and love

and love

and love

Something refuses to die

Something remembers you

Something survives the collapse

Maybe that’s the real victory

Not the height you reach

but the hands you never drop

I don’t know

where life will lead me

But I walk anyway

With open hands

With a steady heart

And what I know for sure

is enough

My people

are my direction

Snowman

Snowman,

all I can wish you

is Merry Christmas.

I hope you understand me.

I couldn’t shape you

the way I imagined.

My hands were cold,

and my heart was louder

than my fingers.

I couldn’t decorate you

the way I wanted.

Life ran out of ornaments.

If you heard my pain,

your heart would melt.

It melts anyway.

Still,

your quiet cuteness,

your borrowed dignity,

steals hearts

from people who forgot

how to feel.

Merry Christmas, Snowman.

Tell me,

what would you like?

A candy cane

bent like a smile

trying its best?

Some families unwrap joy.

Some unwrap silence.

Some unwrap pain

and call it tradition.

The lights…

they aren’t just decorations.

They are attempts.

Small rehearsals of hope.

Like decorating the heart

with feelings,

with emotions,

with things we fear

won’t last till morning.

I wish you could walk, Snowman.

Knock on every door.

Reach every house.

Bring joy.

With Santa,

or without him.

Snowman,

my muffler is yours.

My gloves too.

Take the warmth

I never learned

to keep.

By morning,

you will be gone.

The sun is never gentle

with soft things.

You’ll leave your clothes behind,

fabric on the ground,

and quiet in the air.

I’ll pick them up carefully.

Not because they’re useful,

but because they remember you.

And that…

is Christmas.

Rush

What in the world

is this life rehearsing me for

again

and again

and again

one moment stacked

on the back of another

rush

rush

rush

rush to work

rush through streets that don’t remember my name

rush for a bus that never waits

rush inside traffic

where time melts into horns

rush hour

but I have no hour left

I am tired

not the sleep kind

the soul-after-shift kind

losing strength

like loose change

losing power

like a phone at one percent

people running with briefcases

running with bags

running like the day is short

like evening is a mouth

and something sharp is hiding inside it

I rush on the phone

rush rush rush

half the words don’t arrive

half the meanings are lost in space

someone speaking

from another planet

and calling it normal

rushing for this

rushing for that

carrying a rabbit in my hat

trying to keep it alive

while performing miracles

with shaking hands

everybody wants magic

but nobody wants time

so tell me

what kind of spell survives

when the air itself

is late

When Are You Most Happy?

When are you most happy?

Oh happiness.

Finally, a question

that knows my name.

I’m most happy

when faces glow

not for cameras

not for permission

but because joy showed up

uninvited

and stayed.

When someone I’ve just met

looks at me

and says

“hello”

like they mean

you matter.

When a door opens

for an elderly stranger in a mall

and nobody claps

nobody records

nobody posts.

Just kindness

doing its quiet job.

My happiness grows tall then.

I’m happy

when a shop welcomes you

like you’re walking

into your own ship.

Yes, of course you have to pay

but hey

hey

hey

there’s sunlight on the bay

and suddenly life

doesn’t feel so heavy.

I’m happy

when I forget

things that hurt me

a long time ago.

Not because they vanished

but because forgiveness

walked in

and hatred

lost its seat.

I’m happy

when streets don’t echo

with begging hands

even though I know

every silence

has its own complications.

When color returns

to people

who were once

sigh-less.

Breathless.

Unseen.

When people unite

not to shout

but to sing.

One song.

One joy.

Different voices

same pulse.

I’m happy

when someone falls on the street

and people rush to help

instead of rushing for angles.

Instead of zooming in.

Instead of stealing pain

for content.

I’m happy

when I cook something

and someone says

“this tastes like love”

even if they don’t use those words.

I’m happy

when loving people are around.

And listen

if you don’t have money for the flight

don’t panic.

If your mind can board

your good memories

and your heart becomes light

you still travel.

You still arrive.

I’m happy

when I can give more

with what I already have.

Because abundance

doesn’t come from having

it comes from giving.

I’m happy

when I don’t have to deal

with people

who call me sick.

Yes.

110 degrees.

Lying in bed.

No.

It’s not a fever.

It’s the fever

of happiness.

I’m happy

when my community shows up

with flowers

not because I’m gone

but because I’m here.

So…

what is happiness for me?

It’s not somewhere else.

It’s not later.

It’s not when I win.

It’s here.

Right now.

When someone

is listening.

When someone

is reading.

When someone

feels this

and realizes

they are not alone.

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