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What mistake was that…

which I committed in life?

I thought

I was bigger

than the image

society carved for me.

They used labels instead of chisels,

opinions instead of measurements,

and somehow expected me

to fit inside their pocket-sized truth.

I tried.

I shrank.

I smiled.

That…

was the mistake.

Life is simple.

Painfully simple.

Until you start scratching a pimple

that only needed

time.

Not pressure.

Not nails.

Not obsession.

Just patience.

But we are impatient creatures.

We poke our wounds

and call it healing.

Come closer.

Share your dreams with me.

Not the polished ones

you rehearse at interviews.

The raw ones.

The embarrassing ones.

The dreams you whisper

only when the lights are off

and even hope is half-asleep.

I cannot promise to make them real.

But I promise this

I will not laugh.

I will walk with you

until reality starts negotiating.

They say love is blind.

No.

Love sees too much.

It sees potential where fear sees risk.

It sees tomorrow while today is still screaming.

Love simply doesn’t have

the correct lens

to examine people

the way suspicion does.

That is not blindness.

That is courage

without armor.

Someone once asked me,

“How do I become rich?”

I said,

“You already are.”

They laughed.

Of course they did.

So I said,

“If you don’t believe me,

walk into the cave of your heart.”

Not run.

Walk.

Walk far enough

that noise gets tired.

Far enough

that expectations turn back.

Far enough

that even your name dissolves.

And there

you will find it.

A treasure

that does not glitter,

does not depreciate,

does not ask permission

from circumstance.

Once you touch it,

poverty becomes a situation,

not an identity.

Loss becomes weather,

not destiny.

And no matter

how deprived life tries to make you,

you will remain

untouchably rich.

So no…

my mistake was not dreaming too big.

My mistake

was forgetting

that I was already enough

before the world

gave me a mirror.

I don’t know

where life will lead me

I don’t pretend to.

No blueprint folded in my pocket

No shortcut scribbled by someone richer than my doubt

I don’t know.

But I know this.

When the room gets heavy

When the days forget their purpose

My people will need me

And I will show up

Even if I arrive tired

Even if I arrive unsure

Even if all I bring

is my presence

I don’t know

how love is supposed to save me

I’ve seen love fail

I’ve seen it leave

I’ve seen it arrive late

with apologies that limp

Still

I know for sure

my people will love me

Not because I am perfect

But because I stay

Because I listen

Because I choose us

over the easy exit

I don’t know

how things are going to change

Some nights

the future feels like a locked door

with no handle

just my reflection staring back

But I believe

time keeps receipts

It will tell the truth

about how much I tried

how much I fell

how many times I stood up

without an audience

I don’t know

how success will recognize me

or how failure will say my name

But I’m learning

both are temporary visitors

Neither gets to move in

I don’t know

how kindness is supposed to help

in a world that rewards noise

sharp elbows

and cold ambition

But listen

If you love

and love

and love

and love

Something refuses to die

Something remembers you

Something survives the collapse

Maybe that’s the real victory

Not the height you reach

but the hands you never drop

I don’t know

where life will lead me

But I walk anyway

With open hands

With a steady heart

And what I know for sure

is enough

My people

are my direction

What in the world

is this life rehearsing me for

again

and again

and again

one moment stacked

on the back of another

rush

rush

rush

rush to work

rush through streets that don’t remember my name

rush for a bus that never waits

rush inside traffic

where time melts into horns

rush hour

but I have no hour left

I am tired

not the sleep kind

the soul-after-shift kind

losing strength

like loose change

losing power

like a phone at one percent

people running with briefcases

running with bags

running like the day is short

like evening is a mouth

and something sharp is hiding inside it

I rush on the phone

rush rush rush

half the words don’t arrive

half the meanings are lost in space

someone speaking

from another planet

and calling it normal

rushing for this

rushing for that

carrying a rabbit in my hat

trying to keep it alive

while performing miracles

with shaking hands

everybody wants magic

but nobody wants time

so tell me

what kind of spell survives

when the air itself

is late

You…
you can call the sinking sun warm.
Even as it slips away,
its last glow can still rest on your cheek,
a farewell touch
from something that never belonged to you
yet touched you anyway.

But you…
you cannot leash the sun,
cannot grab it by the rim
and lift it
back over the ridge
into the sky.
The sun may honor your courage,
but it does not obey your wanting.

And you…
you can speak to clouds
in any language you choose.
Give them names,
shapes,
stories.
Clouds listen
but rarely change
because of a voice.

And still,
even if you plead,
you cannot summon rain on command.
A sky does not weep
before its time.
Just as a heart
refuses to shed tears
until something inside
finally shifts.

Air,
light,
clouds
may walk beside you,
but none of them
walk under your ownership.
We live by learning this.

You can tell someone
to be gentle,
but their wounds
must heal beneath their own skin.

You can beg the world
to look beautiful,
but every pair of eyes
carries a private map of old storms.

Nature keeps teaching us:
our addressing is free,
our outcomes are not.

This is why
you can call the sun warm
but you cannot call it back.
You can call to the clouds
but you cannot make them rain.

And maybe this is why
I call to the human heart
without asking it to change.
Because the heart
is just another weather system
moving at its own pace,
under its own sky.