Oh, Long Life

What are your thoughts on the concept of living a very long life?

Oh long life

I can stretch you like rubber,

or let you shrink

like woollen clothes

forgotten in a tumble dryer.

There are things to admire.

There are things that look dire.

But deep inside,

life keeps burning,

different kinds of fire.

I hate it when people call me a liar.

Once you sign a contract,

you belong to a buyer.

There are worldly trips on my timeline,

but holidays are pushed, postponed, denied.

Offices sweat just to give one.

How much youth

do I have to waste

to understand their complications?

If wealth could buy youth,

I would’ve worked like a dog

and slept like a log.

But life is long,

I keep thinking,

and suddenly

it’s short

the very next day.

I wish I had fulfilled her wishes.

Will I ever reach there?

Wisdom doesn’t follow you,

it chases you

one lesson after another.

Desire has no ending.

Expectations keep growing.

Dreams stack like unread messages.

Life keeps going.

Beautiful bodies

become relief for sore eyes.

You get into one chase,

then another,

then another day.

You don’t notice

when your hair turns grey.

I pluck them now,

one by one,

but the day will come

when grey outnumbers normal.

And I’ll ask,

have I gotten old?

The mirror becomes your enemy.

You shatter it.

Buy another one.

Same thing.

Maybe I can still do something good.

Help gentle souls

get back on their feet.

Food.

Roof.

Heat.

Life keeps moving.

Reels after reels.

Memories buffering.

I’m sitting in a rocking chair,

smoking the air of my youth.

Oh long life,

I’m still living you.

Thank you.

What Could I Do Differently?

What could you do differently?

Once, my teacher’s DVD player froze

during listening practice.

She asked for help.

I stepped in.

Pressed a button.

It froze forever.

The class laughed.

I might have broken something.

But for a moment,

everyone smiled.

Since then,

I’ve learned:

sometimes the difference

is not fixing,

it’s staying kind

when things go wrong.

And I still practice that.

Once, walking down the street,

someone asked me for directions.

I pointed toward a hill

I didn’t even know existed.

I hope he made it home.

I hope I’m not cursed.

Now, when I don’t know the way,

I say it out loud.

And I still try to point

with care.

Once, someone asked me,

“How are you?”

I said,

“I’m fine.

Taking wine.

Better not to ask time.

My broken watch shows

half past nine.”

A girl in the park laughed.

She walked up.

We exchanged IDs.

Since then,

I answer differently.

Not perfectly.

But honestly enough

to let a moment breathe.

And I still do that.

Once, I met a man in his fifties,

wearing an orange robe,

barefoot,

his face glowing

like it knew something I didn’t.

I asked him for a coffee.

He stopped.

Looked at me.

Smiled.

Thanked me

for asking.

The difference

is not the drink.

It’s the pause.

The permission to be human together.

Now, when I meet strangers,

I don’t rush past their light.

I invite it to sit with me.

Once, on a bus,

my favorite music playing,

heater on,

world soft and warm,

an elderly woman with a dog,

and a mother with a child,

stood there.

The bus was full.

I stood up.

“Please, take my seat.”

That moment taught me

comfort is lighter

when shared.

So now,

I stand more easily.

These aren’t stories

about what I did.

They’re lessons

about how I live.

So now,

no matter who approaches me,

I carry

a smile,

an understanding heart,

and ears that listen.

Nothing to prove.

Nothing to take.

Nothing to fake.

Just showing up

a little more awake

than before.

And yes,

I’m still doing it.

If I Had A Freeway Billboard

If you had a freeway billboard, what would it say?

If I had a freeway billboard

I would leave it empty

so imagination could step in

a pause

for eyes tired of color and command

an empty slate

light as feathers

on the freeway of life

moving

through sun

through rain

curiosity lingering

about what might come next

no slogans to borrow

nothing to copy

nothing to paste

just wind passing

metal frame breathing

cars carry their own stories

unread

uninterrupted

a moment without instruction

no arrows

no promises

only the road

stretching

and the mind

loosening its grip

thoughts slow down

like traffic after rain

nothing is asked

nothing is sold

and somehow

that is enough

What Trees Say When No One Stays

Two trees stand close,
close enough to feel each other’s presence.

They speak
after the footsteps disappear.

When the green grows thick,
people slow down,
look for a moment,
then move on.

One tree says,
my leaves are gone.
The wind passes straight through me.
I feel exposed.
I feel bare.

The other tree replies,
being bare
is still a way of standing.
Still a way of existing.

The first tree says,
beauty was spring.
When light rested on us,
when clouds were drawn closer,
curious,
unafraid.

Beauty was rain
that felt like bathing,
like starting again.

Now
it only feels like waiting.

The other tree answers,
the clouds never stopped coming.
They only changed how they arrive.

Sometimes as rain.
Sometimes as snow.
Sometimes as quiet dew
that stays until morning.

They stayed longer than people did.

Whatever human eyes choose to see,
whatever they pass by,

the sky keeps watching.
Light keeps returning.

Sometimes softly.
Sometimes with thunder.

These are not mistakes.
They are seasons.

And like trees,
human lives move through fullness,
through loss,
through stillness.

So when no one stays,
when nothing looks like spring,

what might still be standing with you,
patient,
seen,
and waiting?

If Tiresome Has a Name

 If tiresome has a name

….that is me.

Tired of listening to the news

that doesn’t make any sense.

Talking loud, saying nothing,

repeating itself like it’s afraid of silence.

Tired of making fun of my own feed,

scrolling like a clown

in a circus I never bought tickets for.

Tired of changing tires

of my own mind.

It keeps running without control.

When I press the brake,

it doesn’t stop.

It parks

right where addiction lives.

Headache music,

louder than holy chanting,

buzzing in my skull.

I put my phone away,

but the chant walks in on its own.

Same tune.

Different mouth.

Algorithm knows my weakness.

I search once,

it follows me everywhere

like a stray thought.

Last night I searched for a bag of gold.

It was never mine.

Now experts keep teaching me

how to lose money professionally.

Gold apps.

Rich words.

Empty pockets.

Sometimes I think

I don’t have patience.

Sometimes I think

I’ve had too much of it.

I close my eyes.

Nothing closes.

Images run.

Memories chase.

No finish line.

You live with it.

Work like a donkey.

Smile.

Miss one step

and someone’s already pointing.

“It’s alright,”

I tell myself.

But comfort never arrives

like a celebration.

It comes quietly,

late,

if at all.

I am tired.

Not sleepy.

Not bored.

Tired.

I don’t need motivation.

I don’t need advice.

I need a long vacation

from noise,

from knowing,

from being switched on all the time.

If tiresome has a name—

you already know it.

Retro Vibe (The Room Decides)

Retro vibe.

Retro vibe.

Retro vibe.

Come, friends.

Don’t ask why.

Tonight the room decides who we are.

The door is locked from the inside.

Excuses are prepared for the outside.

If they ask, say you were celebrating

someone else’s life

while quietly escaping your own.

Music plays low

not because it’s weak

but because it knows patience.

My flow isn’t sharp,

it doesn’t rush.

Still, my face carries a glow

like I’ve forgiven myself

for not being impressive.

I dance inward.

No witnesses.

Compared to the world,

I remain comfortably strange.

A hairbrush becomes a microphone.

Confidence borrows my hands.

I look into the mirror

and the mirror doesn’t laugh.

It says,

“You’re believable.”

Bass taps the floor.

Dim. Dim.

Juice sweats in my palm.

My feet remember joy

before responsibility learned my name.

A voice from another room says,

“Come inside.”

I reply, calmly,

“Not tonight.”

Tonight I choose myself

without explanation.

The wig is bad.

The dream is not.

Even badly dressed,

I shine.

Come closer, friends.

This room is enough.

Lights off.

Disco on.

If you’re the hero of your story,

fine.

Tonight,

I’m the author of my own quiet chaos.

Gravity Is Sometimes a Ladder

Does it hurt

when someone pulls your hair?

Of course it does.

Pain doesn’t need permission.

But when they start pulling my legs…

That’s fine.

I’ve learned

gravity is sometimes a ladder.

If humiliation is their shortcut,

don’t rush.

I know the route.

I’ve walked it barefoot.

I can push myself down

with better accuracy.

And still,

I know people

who can lift me back

without asking

why I fell.

No matter how hard they tackle,

no matter how dirty the field,

I keep the ball close.

I don’t look at the crowd.

I don’t explain the rules.

I dribble

my life

forward.

Until something solid

finally stops me.

Don’t confuse silence

for weakness.

Snatching me from myself

takes stamina.

My heart doesn’t slip.

My mind doesn’t fold.

But understand this

If you pull too long,

too hard,

too often…

I don’t break.

I change.

Not the movie kind of crazy.

No white coats.

No dramatic music.

Just the quiet kind

that stops caring

about pleasing you.

I collect moments.

Some taste sweet.

Some stay bitter.

I don’t separate them anymore.

I scatter them like rice

for pigeons.

They eat.

They leave.

That’s the agreement.

When they come back,

I don’t count faces.

I don’t track wings.

I don’t ask

who deserved what.

My kindness is not a strategy.

It’s a condition.

Their happiness matters.

Even when they don’t know

what to do with it.

I don’t study birds.

But people?

People return

wearing new masks,

testing reflections,

hoping one fits.

Some never plan

to be seen.

Still,

Let one soul

recognize another.

Even the selfish ones.

At least

they’re selling fish.

They just refuse

to teach

anyone

how to fish.

Resolution: Dissolution, 2026

People are making resolutions.

Someone wants a new nose,

new hair,

fresh muscles.

I will have a new ear.

In the new year

my resolution will be dissolution.

They may call me disillusioned,

say I am not influential,

not doing what others do.

Good things find their way.

The new year is just an excuse.

I can declare a new year in February

and nobody will ask why.

I can live with my own calendar.

Four hundred days a year.

Nine days a week.

I can live my life with some decency,

some urgency,

maybe with a little trick.

Things will change anyway.

You will meet people

who try to scare you,

saying next year

the world will turn upside down.

We will not be hanging like bats.

Gravity has not lost its mind.

You will not receive news saying

electricity is free,

no council tax,

mortgages paid by someone else.

Whatever year it is,

the bank will not leave you alone.

Even if you die

they will dig you up

and ask you to pay.

So what else would I do?

Maybe I will practice mindfulness.

Let people say whatever they want.

Maybe a little tolerance,

forgiveness.

No need to argue.

You cannot expect a donkey to dance

if all it knows is braying.

2026, deep down my mind is praying,

laying,

saying:

You have to come out of your crust.

Old skin should change.

Cleanse your soul.

Find your goal.

Do not forget to smile.

Not for others,

but for the person

you see in the mirror

while holding a comb.

My hair has not been combed

for seven years.

Last time was my wedding.

Had to do it anyway

for the pictures.

Now I have a pocket phone

where the camera only sees me.

I do not care.

Something to fix.

Something to repair.

Nothing much to share.

I am a superstar

still falling through the atmosphere.

Oh 2026,

disintegrate me.

Memory Lane

Do they appreciate

the way you are

I stopped caring

what people say

I appreciated myself

enough

to last a month

Then I came back

stood in front of the mirror

and admitted

self-appreciation leaks

All I wanted

was validation from others

But they arrive carrying

different mouths

different weather

You dress this way

you look smart

No, you look bland

No, you don’t look like

you belong to this land

So appreciation becomes optional

and validation

a requirement

Yet nothing

nothing we need as much

as closing our eyes

What else do we need

to remember ourselves

Memory lane

unchanged

The way she looked at me

like she was already gone

That look

Those eyes

Distant before distance

Memories don’t leave

they relocate

Will we cross paths someday

Nothing to do

Nothing to say

Destiny doesn’t need applause

Only witness

We must appreciate

the way we are

In one way

and the other

Two sides of the same lane

Me

You

Us

All of us

walking

without noticing

we never left

memory lane

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