When Are You Most Happy?

When are you most happy?

Oh happiness.

Finally, a question

that knows my name.

I’m most happy

when faces glow

not for cameras

not for permission

but because joy showed up

uninvited

and stayed.

When someone I’ve just met

looks at me

and says

“hello”

like they mean

you matter.

When a door opens

for an elderly stranger in a mall

and nobody claps

nobody records

nobody posts.

Just kindness

doing its quiet job.

My happiness grows tall then.

I’m happy

when a shop welcomes you

like you’re walking

into your own ship.

Yes, of course you have to pay

but hey

hey

hey

there’s sunlight on the bay

and suddenly life

doesn’t feel so heavy.

I’m happy

when I forget

things that hurt me

a long time ago.

Not because they vanished

but because forgiveness

walked in

and hatred

lost its seat.

I’m happy

when streets don’t echo

with begging hands

even though I know

every silence

has its own complications.

When color returns

to people

who were once

sigh-less.

Breathless.

Unseen.

When people unite

not to shout

but to sing.

One song.

One joy.

Different voices

same pulse.

I’m happy

when someone falls on the street

and people rush to help

instead of rushing for angles.

Instead of zooming in.

Instead of stealing pain

for content.

I’m happy

when I cook something

and someone says

“this tastes like love”

even if they don’t use those words.

I’m happy

when loving people are around.

And listen

if you don’t have money for the flight

don’t panic.

If your mind can board

your good memories

and your heart becomes light

you still travel.

You still arrive.

I’m happy

when I can give more

with what I already have.

Because abundance

doesn’t come from having

it comes from giving.

I’m happy

when I don’t have to deal

with people

who call me sick.

Yes.

110 degrees.

Lying in bed.

No.

It’s not a fever.

It’s the fever

of happiness.

I’m happy

when my community shows up

with flowers

not because I’m gone

but because I’m here.

So…

what is happiness for me?

It’s not somewhere else.

It’s not later.

It’s not when I win.

It’s here.

Right now.

When someone

is listening.

When someone

is reading.

When someone

feels this

and realizes

they are not alone.

Running Home

Do you know that feeling

of running in the rain

toward home

like you are escaping

a shower

that is already waiting

inside

just running

and running

no destination

only motion

I think

someday

I will slip into a parallel world

where one second here

is an hour there

and suddenly

my sight changes

the sky opens

meteors falling

from a starry ceiling

for a moment

I wonder

will it land on me

no

I still belong

to my world

I don’t want the weight

of another universe

my shoulders

are already awake

something floats above

messages

bubbles in the sky

in that other world

words are sent

without fear

everything visible

honesty

before it learned fear

here

we speak in codes

because words

become gossip

and truth

learns how to hide

we need language

to play with

lego bricks of thought

stacked

and restacked

inside

my head

then

I arrive home

the rain was heavy

cats

dogs

everything falling

I am wet

clothes

skin

bones

my heart

still dry

Understanding the Heart: The Weather of Emotions

You…
you can call the sinking sun warm.
Even as it slips away,
its last glow can still rest on your cheek,
a farewell touch
from something that never belonged to you
yet touched you anyway.

But you…
you cannot leash the sun,
cannot grab it by the rim
and lift it
back over the ridge
into the sky.
The sun may honor your courage,
but it does not obey your wanting.

And you…
you can speak to clouds
in any language you choose.
Give them names,
shapes,
stories.
Clouds listen
but rarely change
because of a voice.

And still,
even if you plead,
you cannot summon rain on command.
A sky does not weep
before its time.
Just as a heart
refuses to shed tears
until something inside
finally shifts.

Air,
light,
clouds
may walk beside you,
but none of them
walk under your ownership.
We live by learning this.

You can tell someone
to be gentle,
but their wounds
must heal beneath their own skin.

You can beg the world
to look beautiful,
but every pair of eyes
carries a private map of old storms.

Nature keeps teaching us:
our addressing is free,
our outcomes are not.

This is why
you can call the sun warm
but you cannot call it back.
You can call to the clouds
but you cannot make them rain.

And maybe this is why
I call to the human heart
without asking it to change.
Because the heart
is just another weather system
moving at its own pace,
under its own sky.

What a Name Cannot Define

I am more than enough,” he said.

I know my feet are chained.

There is pain,

but things do not stay the same

when people take benefit in your name.

Oh, don’t worry.

If they are happy,

if that gives them good sleep,

let them cheer.

Let them have all the joy in the world.

What’s in a name, anyway?

Shakespeare asked that once,

through Juliet’s mouth,

and passed the question down.

Why are you so obsessed with your name?

Close your eyes

and see yourself.

You are only that

which a name cannot define.

The Blessing That Turned Me Inward

I wasn’t trying to save the world.

I knelt in front of God.

I wasn’t asking for power,

just blessings.

I received one.

Now I will try to save myself first,

because a soul that finds its way

can turn millions away

from paths

that do not lead to you.

Becoming Whole: A Journey Through Breaking and Rebuilding

I have noticed something.
Most people never realise
that I can break again…
and still keep walking.

Maybe that’s why
even after they’ve shattered once,
they drift around
searching for the next crack,
the next fall,
as if collapsing is the only language
they know how to speak.

And this heart of mine,
still splitting in slow motion,
keeps asking me,
“What do I tell myself now?”

So I answer:

Every fragment I’ve ever become
held a soul inside it.
A presence.
Someone or something
that completed that moment
exactly as it was meant to be.

Like a puzzle
that pretends to be chaos
until one day it doesn’t.

And the truth is,
I’m a puzzle too.
Not the easy kind.
Not the kind with a picture on the box.

Just pieces.
Just silence.
Just the slow discovery
of what fits where.

And when life turns you
into your own riddle,
you stop hunting for answers
outside your skin.

You start stepping out
from the inside.
Piece by piece,
clearer than yesterday.

This is how I rise:
not by pretending I never broke,
but by realizing
I was never ruined.
Only rearranged.

And I walk ahead.
I carry whatever pieces stay.
Even unfinished, I am still becoming.
I am becoming the whole thing I was meant to be.

Nothing Moves Me

My friend asked me,

what motivates you most?

I said,

nothing.

My consciousness flows like a river,

naturally.

I don’t chase words.

I let them arrive.

I write what passes through my mind,

as it passes.

If it is a divine gift,

I accept it.

It makes me blissful.

And from that bliss,

I began to write.

False Arrival

They arrived at the destination

without speaking,

without exchanging anything.

Because the destination

was still far away

in their minds.

But in their hearts,

they believed

they had arrived.

They set their burdens down,

felt their shoulders loosen,

light for a moment.

Then incompleteness returns.

It follows you,

pulls you downward,

deeper,

and deeper still.

Until someone shakes you awake.

And you rise,

wondering,

was I dreaming?

An Invitation to the Soul

You can be happy now.

Not tomorrow.

Not after fixing everything.

Now.

Smile

the kind that doesn’t ask permission.

Laugh

even if it surprises you.

Dance

not like a star

but like someone

finally alone

with their own body.

Let the sky

watch you

without judging.

Let the wind pass by

and not explain yourself to it.

You don’t owe the universe

a performance.

Be one

with the person

who wakes up inside you

every morning

before your name does.

You call it your soul.

I call it

the one who waits.

When that soul

stands at your doorstep

unannounced

hands empty

eyes tired

would you open the door

or pretend

you are not home?

The door of my heart

is not always open.

It closes

on busy days.

On loud nights.

On days I forget myself.

But on weekends

and slow holidays

when time loosens its grip

I leave it unlocked.

No conditions.

No explanations.

If you’re coming to stay

come gently.

This is where the quiet things live.

The unfinished dreams.

The soft fears.

The beautiful mess.

If you’re looking for beauty

you won’t find perfection here.

You’ll find

someone

still choosing to let themselves in.

Just like you.

The Debt Freedom Remembers

I told you

I would pay your debt…

and give you freedom.

Not

to buy

your love.

Freedom

should never

come with receipts.

But if love never comes…

if my name

never finds a home

in your mouth,

if my absence

feels lighter

than my presence…

then let me remain

the debt

you never finish repaying.

Not in money.

In memory.

In the quiet moments

when freedom asks you

who

paid

its price.

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