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Nothing to say
to you

you have been wonderful to me
but now you have to stop
taking advantage of my silence

just because I smile every time
doesn’t mean I am weak

because of you
and your management
my heart has become fragile

sleepless nights

if I become an insomniac
I know
you won’t have to buy the pills

every day you ignore my request
something inside me
gets a little more tired

I haven’t done anything wrong

my mind is not in a place
where I can carry
everything at once

but I am not less

if you want to defeat me
come
let’s play chess

I am not good
at thinking ten moves ahead
but I am thoughtful
for sure

I make sure you are happy
I work on whatever comes my way
with all of me
poured into it

and still
my email sits somewhere
waiting to be noticed

tonight
if the sky breaks
if the earth overturns
if the sea rises over everything

you may still find
my request
sitting unread

so please
wake up

respond to my email

don’t batter me
like I don’t matter

discrimination is at its peak
so many things left unsaid
so many things I could speak
so many boxes
still waiting for a tick

and please
don’t hit me with another hammer

I am already injured.