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I think

today I won’t curse anyone.

But then

something comes to mind

and my heart starts burning again.

I wonder

how do I calm this mind now?

When there is no one around

I stand in front of the mirror

and curse myself instead,

all kinds of things.

And somehow

my mind becomes calm.

After all,

it is only cursing.

Without a little cursing

even food tastes bland.

Today

the people I usually curse

are not even home.

Should I call someone

who has gone to work

and ask them

to give me something

to curse them for?

No.

That would sound strange.

Maybe I should mess something up.

I have to ruin something

at least.

No,

that is not right either.

Maybe I should do something good.

Something kind.

Maybe help someone

with a true heart.

But even then

something or another

goes wrong.

You cannot please everyone.

So again

I stand in front of the mirror

and explain things to myself.

Look, my dear,

instead of getting into

all this cursing and swearing,

stand here for a while.

Look at the person

in the mirror.

Let him look at you too.

Then love each other.

After that

whoever curses you,

their words will start

to feel small.

You are not worthy of curses.

You are worthy of applause.

Then

the man in the mirror and I

clap for each other.

If someone saw me,

they would probably think,

what a madman.

And I am already sitting there

ready to curse them

for thinking that.