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The day I stop telling the truth,

I might finally find some peace.

I could hide behind a lie,

pretend everything is fine,

and keep running

from the truth I left behind.

But one day,

the truth will catch up with me.

It will stand before me and ask,

“Was peace really what you were looking for?”

And there I will stand,

with a heart full of pain

and tears in my eyes,

trying to find the words to explain.

“I tried to find peace by telling the truth,

but all I found was pain.

So now, I am saving a little peace for later,

because I am afraid

that if I cannot learn to lie,

I might find it harder to live

with the truth.”

But lies have a weight of their own.

Sooner or later,

I will have to carry them everywhere I go.

They say the truth sets you free.

They say truth always wins.

But what if I am tired of winning?

What if I don’t care who wins or loses?

I don’t want to prove anyone wrong.

I don’t need to prove myself right.

I don’t need a victory

for the world to celebrate.

I just want a little peace of mind.

A peace that doesn’t cost me my honesty,

but doesn’t leave me hurting

for the sake of it either.

Because, in the end,

I don’t want to win against the world.

I just want to live with myself

without having to fight

for a little peace.